not exactly a long weekend dear? I know there is always insufficient time for us to be together..

At last, we have confirmed the batam trip. From the initial many many ppl going, we have cut down to roughly 7, maybe some of your friends and some of mine. Look forward to it ya baby? we all need a getaway once in awhile, and this mayb the only one till a year to come.

Bmt is finishing very soon..dunno if thats a good thing or not. After all these discussions, its still not down to me to decide what vocation do i go, but. i jus wish it wouldnt be too limiting to my freedom..
i know how you feel. how should a girl be feeling. what if you wait for me all these years, what if you last through this tough period for me, yet it will all be for nothing?it would be a waste of your youth, waste of your years. but please baby, what my mum says or feel, isint what i say or feel. If you feel the struggle, so do i...
we are not trying to compare who is in a tougher position..
you are not forcing me to say, and its not a selfish thing. sometimes,we jus feel the struggle of waiting and hiding..
i know that what i say will not be of use. of course. its only all emotions when i say i love you.and that i will make this forever..

SORRY BABY. last week i went off and forgot to write a blog entry for you, made you wait a week.haha

how tough these weeks have been huh baby?you have to work so hard for reports while i become mr important platoon i/c. poor thing u..do nothing but study and type all day..must be struggling hard to stay happy and even have to cheer me up whenever im on the phone..im sorry i sound so down and make your mood bad too. you always can find the words to cheer me up..or mayb its jus your voice which has the power..hahaha..

how should i thank you? you make my nights in camp better, you make me have the strength to go on every new day, u chiong so hard to finish your work in the weekdays jus so weekends you will be free for me. i can only bring you to good food now and treat you. So let me treat u when i can k?hahaha..nice to have some sweet chocolate ice cream or some tasty brownie with you..jus sit there and stare into your eyes..watch you smile widely at me, cus i know in your mind, you are also enjoying every moment with me.

had a good time this weekend ma?i should plan more nice stuff for you..cus i know outings with me is always repetitive..haha..movie was good ya?first time i see you enjoy a comedy family movie with me..how good would it be if we have our baby paris between laughing with us. come. lets hope next weekend will be long too k?ill be fighting hard the weekdays with you and we can enjoy our heavenly weekends. true. These tough times make us realise how every little thing is an enjoyment, what we take for granted. Baby, now every moment with you is good enough,no matter where we are what we do.

dont you know how much i love every second you hold my hand tight with your tiny hand.

4 weeks have passed ever since 13th april 2009 came.3 weeks and 3 days iv been spending missing you madly.

Of the few days i get to see you dear,each and every minute i get to see you counts. From the moment i lay my eyes on you, till the minute i step out of your door and give you a last glance, it really feels like heaven to me. absence makes the heart grow fonder, way fonder. but i don't know how we shall last through each others absence for the next 1 yr plus..

army days are fine for me dear. To me, it isin't that tough physically and i can take it. Plus ( A BIG plus), i somehow will automatically stay healthy and less pimpled and grow fatter. I hope this is the case forever, cus i really dun wanna be injured or sick that will make you worried sick. Field camp was shitty but im glad its all over. Now, at least i can talk to you and hear your voice most nights,and after all these rush of events are done, comes the time to slack more. Every book out i book out to spend with you. I'm sorry but i definitely have to spend a few hours with my family updating them how im doing, but i promise you of course, im all yours and i give you all the time i can have for book out. You know all that happens in army so i shall not repeat again to you right dear?hahaha

Let me look into your eyes, let me hold you tight.
Let me see you smile, that sweet smile that makes everything alright...

Baby you, the words you said in your blog, i can tell how much you miss me everytime im gone. Even though you don't hear or see much of what i say, you should know i miss you like mad too. You are not in the waiting list. You're the only one in the VIP list. I call you first, i spend admin time only on you. I need to hear your voice to last through every new day. Not being able to contact you makes me so worried wadever that can happen to you. So now, don't be silly, you are my love, my top concern. And don't go worrying too much about me. I can take care of myself better now, because i don't wanna worry you.

Here's something to cheer you; i'll try to blog everytime i book out, k?

Muacks,
to you my dear Pamela.