I knew this night would come. and it came too soon too fast.

So OCS it would be. did we see this coming? i dunno..of course..it would be a once in a lifetime experience..but im not sure i would be enjoying it much..9 months..i know it would be very hard for you..waiting for me every minute without seeing me..and it goes without saying..this coming 4weeks will be almost unbearable..i know how much you love me..i know how much u cherish this relationship..and i give you the commitment too..i wont let go..i wont give up on you..

take care yourself when you are off to hongkong k?im really quite worried baby..dun wan you to go partly cus i wanna see you the 3rd weekend..but also the possibility of the H1N1..there is really alot cases..tell me if you do get any vaccination shots..you should baby..of course the trip would be good for your studies..and thats a good thing i wan for you too..but..take care of yourself..tell me you are all healthy whenever i call you from camp..

not gonna see your house anymore!so many memories there..almost every corner of the house..why do i sound more attach and unwilling bout the move than you?haha..like you say baby..mayb you have moved house too much..but we really been through alot there ya?even the first few years of didi's life we have witnessed it there..and from you wearing uniform to everyday dresses..hahaha..i miss you wearing uniform..LOL

ill tell you all the things that will happen in camp..i always do..dont i?hahaha..hope my buddy is a nice guy..now dear..i feel the same as you..i dun wan us to hide our relationship forever..or any longer..i told my parents..and we shall see how things go..i dun wan you to feel down..remember i wont give up on you..i love you jus as endlessly as you love me..you should know and can feel..i prefer seeing you smile baby..hmm?muacks..i dun mind shouldering the pain if i can take it all away from you..i do wad i can to make our future a reality..i love you dear..ill miss you like mad..ill probably go insane without you, my personal brand of heroine..

PS:TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF PLEASE BABY.you know im always lo so

BACK FROM HEAVEN.

once in awhile, dear makes plans with the angels above to allow us to go up and take a walk around and enjoy a few days. of course, i know how lucky i am to have ya as my girlfriend..well..we all hate to come to the last day and hate to get back home..that feeling on the last day is always dreadful..either at bintan, redang or batam..why mus it end..hahaha

such an enjoyment hmm dear?this time we brought along so many friends..and it got even better..though not say everyone mixes around..at least my section mates are outgoing enough to make everyone join in..
-go cart
-swimming
-seafood dinner
-night late playing card games
-breakfast
-shopping
-massage (not me)
-dinner
-night late playing games and ghost stories
-breakfast
-bowling and pool
-swim
-off back home..

out of all trips..this should be the one that is most fun..though the place is nothing much amazing or wad..its jus good place to enjoy company..i dunno how to post pics..so we jus see from facebook k dear?haha..quite memorable ba..finally..some friends of mine you can enjoy company of..how can you mistake me with sidne..haiyo dear..haha..
look at you. i cant forget that look. every morning when im bout to wake up..you jus wrap yourself tight around me..and when i turn..i see your angelic face smiling at me..and i know that the day will be great..cus i have you right from the start beside me..
lets plan our next trip k?it should be one where we fly ba.hahaha..muacks..thank you so much baby..I LOVE YOU TILL BITS AND PIECES.

POP.
coming in 3 days!thats so soon huh..in a flash, 2 months have already passed..of course we struggled so badly during confinement period, and so is the days i mus be stuck in camp or in the jungle.. it has been hard for you baby..all you get for the long days of waiting is jus ear digs and cuddling to sleep and shoulder massages..haha..i know you enjoy them..but you need something more..something like...batam trip!haha..its coming soon..and i cant wait..another thing i cant help tinking bout..will i be able to take my tp test..will i be able to pass in 1 go..i dun wanna be stuck as a bbdc member forever..i wan my license soon..
where would i end up for the next 1 year plus? now that we keep hearing others say..we really duno huh?haha..well..i jus wanna get these years done..so i dun really mind wherever i go..ill jus become fitter and fitter..and earn some money to splurge on you..hahaha
dun be so put down by work baby..i know its tough..but its your last year in NP tourism already..lets finish it well and get a good university placing ya?remember our plan..5k per mom/dad..haha..and for that, we have to start now dun we?
every weekend that i get to see you, i have renewed strength to go on and finish the weeks ahead..without you..army should feel like non stop confinement..muacks.

i love ya