importance and perceptions...they become clearer and clearer to me after each time...and i try to learn from each as much as possible...whether its something i can't do with or without...its not a choice.i can't hope or dream anymore now.
Not great day ytd...jus like lu say...hao xing mei you hao bao...play hockey during PE...kena whack by ball...not pain le la...but part of the suay day...this is jus the start...maths lesson pass my Tys to ying peng cus she need it...jus one bloody second...mr ho turn behind and saw me pass...look at me with that face...i know is sure scold me la...but i duno for wad...so i stare at him back blur blur...ask me get out...haha...i cant hear wat he shouted...so jus walk out to the back...admire the HDB flat for 1 hour see people walk around and tink y so suay...come home...then remember i dint bring back my pe shirt...felt damn damn piss le...so wenta sleep...sleep always cure...haha...make me put aside boredom...have some rest...so the week ends this way...again...well...i know i can't ask for anything...as long as you're happy...its the best things can go...this stagnant...unchangeable things...interlock themselves...one has to fight...and i shall...to free u...
ni zhi dao wo zai deng ni ma?haha...like old man...but i really mean this...seem so tiring...weekdays. A smile to start the morning, a quiet restrained soul in bed at night. i duno if you are the creator of my hopes or the destroyer. it all comes back to learning to take the pain and dissapointments.as usual, wake up with a hope...which always ends unknown...haha...i dun intend to force the issue...jus let things flow. whenever i walk home, seems there is no crowd around me, music is the only thing to comfort me by my ears. will you turn back one day, needing or wanting? different perceptions of importance...are we drawing apart...i duno.the digital world seems all.fell too deep...
looking behind my back, staring down at the escalator, holding up my hp unconsciously...wana use this to keep my daily thoughts ba...no where else to keep...dun intent to publicise this.if seen then its alright anyway...today stupid...kind of suay...cut nails cut till bleed...dint pay attention...mind stray away again...walk till pain cus stupid slippers...well.jus missing you doesn't help.heart flies off wanting to take one last look at you everyday.but jus seems difficult, or somehow.pointless to follow...aches...someone free me pls..
