Everytime we argue,it hurts like mad.yet actually im always the one making you mad..but doesn't mean you're not my priority, who i put first.
I gave up $5000 and a contract. I dun give a damn what i can get from it as long as you dun like it. I dun like to hurt you.i hate seeing you look that way and the way you speak coldly to me...

but i guess my hurts are always not as bad as yours..what for the competition.all i wan is for you to be happy..

I guess i should blog.hahaha

we both agree time really flew past these few months..and now wads on our minds?1..how are we gonna meet on nights out since im at paya lebar from now on..2..wad should we decide on and wad to work for in our uni years..and 3..(this is for me only) what to get for you this birthday?LOL.

ever since i told my ma the truth about us..it hasnt been really tough as i imagine it would be..now that its been done..i never have to hide anymore and you feel more comfortable ba dear? think now all my relatives know about this too..dunno if thats a good or bad..i always wondered how my cousins will be towards you..the way i enjoy your cousins company?i hope so too..simple things like taking a shopping trip with your aunt's family is already quite enjoyable.why?cus you are happiest when you are with them most of the time.

service terms over!too bad you were having bit fever on social night dear..if not should be better for you ba?another phase in army over..and i shall be going pro soon..quite worried how tough it would be..its suppose to be much tougher..but you will always cheer me on i know..hope i dun feel too shitty in there and affect your mood..you're going to work soon baby!should be quite exciting to try out there ba..some friends are going along with you..makes me feel better..

life's tougher now for you..but just like the poster you gave me..''if you want the rainbow you must first learn to put up with the rain''..and dear, ill be with you through the rain ya?muacks

i give my best for you.but i know, it isin't enough for me to deserve the best of you...

seems like all that i do now are just things you have to try very hard to tolerate.

I'm jus saying how I feel, I'm not blaming you dear. Who am i to blame u..I'm the one who let you down..

haven been blogging for a long while..sorry dear..either im too lazy..or im too busy..no matter how, i still did not blog and i did not let you have anything to read..let me make up and try to tell you all i can tink of k?

Looks like i haven start on anything about air wing. Ever since i got transferred into air wing that night, many army ways ok life have changed, and you know that very well dear..haha..the time we get to take naps..the longer times we have to change into different clothes..the P.A system which you tink is so cute (i tink you're the one cute, its jus PA system silly) and many many more..including the most crucial..friday night bookouts!haha..poor you have to fetch me out every time i bookout..so the least i could do is to chiong marching as fast as i can..cus every additional day away from you..we both start to get whiny and all so in need of sticking to each other..haha..thats when i cant wait to meet you and hold you tight..

you know my weekly routines dont you baby?i keep every weeks timetable so i can remember all of wad happened in air wing..rmb how i felt at the start?i thought these ppl are so weird..all they talk about is their interest about planes and the specifics..and i couldnt get any of it at all..or catch any ball..haha..sooo..it wasnt that good a place to feel comfortable in..i got myself the post of the OA..and everyday i set up lectures..haha..so days go by..rather quickly hmm?and now, we more or less know everyone and it gets quite friendly around le..and so theres also my buddy..haha..
dont you feel sian that i go for visits while you work hard baby?i know its tough work for you..but you are nearing the finishing line..so cmon dear..smile hmm?i try my best to cheer you up..but i know..i am the most boring person on earth..so i can only try to tink of wads funny in my daily life and share with ya..work is tough.but u are tougher and you can last through baby..i can pamper you with simple things like food and massage and ear digs ya?unlimited..forever demandable..hehe..

and now to OBS.i knew from the moment they called for valuables..and i know i cannot jus hand it away..so i sneaked it with me..haha..manage to sms ya a bit..know you have been struggling with work still this week..but your big presentation is now over ya dear?K.SO HERE GOES...
WED: morning we left off and slept like dead logs on the bus..so unwilling to get off and start the camp..we were so dead on the boat and my buddy was right,we had to change to wet attire and jump off to swim to shore..haha..that was a good start i thought..wakes us up.and so the first day we had to break the ice with some simple games and get to know our instructor..vivian is the female instructor out of other 2 groups..we then played key punch..punch the alphabets in the circle in ascending order..sounds easy hor dear?but we disqualified twice cus of dumb stuff..like me stepping on boundary..haha..then was first days fun event!climbing those high elements obstacles..i thought i would be ham ji but not that bad..i was more garang than others..did the one that was higher with nothing to support..haha..hurts the balls though sitting on the log..hahaha..night was nothing much already..jus some communication game and goodnight time..food was all catered..relatively not bad to feel hungry ppl like us..haha..and there is always a cute dog around..we name him as our group name (BOB:band of brothers)..he is smart not to come up cook house but sits obediently to wait for you to feed it..
THURS: Here comes the day we are quite afraid of..the instructors keep saying that this course will be be mentally and physically challenging..so we were worried..haha..morning started with row boat..8 men get into a ugly wide boat and row..u know dear..that kind 4 on each side row de..that we took very long cus we were lousy at it..went round 1 side of the island and thats for the big part of the day..then land navigation started on 3 plus..hollanded and only found 1 checkpoint before chionging straigth for campsite 2 for the night.the walk was bout 5k and we came to a beach side shore where we set our tents facing the sea to enjoy the breeze..field cooking was madness..we spam all the maggie and the can food and stuffed ourselves full bfore going to sleep..had a short ghost story session around our small camp fire in our group..tell ya if you wanna know..haha..muacks..10.30 was my patrol duty with ronald and we walked round for 30 mins before going back to that squeezy sleeping area.we really sleep straight vertically and stick side by side..wads more..millipedes fell onto me in the middle of the night..argh..haha
FRI:BOOK OUT!we knew we will have to wake early..so 4 we auto woke up and clear up..chiong in the black dark forest all the way back to camp..ubin can be quite erie..rest awhile for breakfast and we are off to kayak!this was fun baby..2 man chiong round the island..cut through the inner river and steer around swamps..then back out to see..tiring but fun..back for wash up and tada..we are done with the camp!

lucky you told me not to chao geng dear..haha..some things mus try then know its worth the effort..i cant wait to see ya tml..i know you mus be feeling dead tired repeating projcts after projects..do well for exams and have a short weeks rest hmm?its coming soon dear..muacks..u can make it..see me tml and ill make you smile like you mean it..can?cus your happiness..your smile makes my universe go round...

letter of update to commander Brigadial General Pamela Lee,
minister of love and life affairs of Ng Wei Ting

MUACKS.I LOVE YOU BABY

BABY ITS WEEKEND.
i know its sunday and im going back in again..but hey, this is the best we can get already ya?im so lucky thanks to you dear..never been so lucky before...

So this was how 3 weeks gone by..as you have read from my journal bout my army days and wad i do..i shall not further bore you with the facts..hahaha..
it was so miserable in the first week of the confinement period..i all the things we have planned ahead was so scarily difficult and so shitty i dint had any idea if i could complete it..all i could think was wad if we were like wad others say, that ocs will break relationships cus of the lack of time?every little thing can easily get me confine and i wont see you again for more weeks to come..wad do i do if you feel so down and i cant be out??i hate it when you sound so troubled and frustrated and all i could do is to hear you cry...
and jus when things were getting so shitty..that night came and names were called out..right when all 5 of the 6 names were called..i knew i had no more chance of getting out of infantry already..but sir said Ng Wei Ting.i was all ready to scream out yes sir but i wasnt gonna believe so soon.now im here and i have much better time with you..tok to you on phone..book outs on fridays..and mayb even wed nights out soon..
first weekend out!got to see 1 last time of your house..this time empty. so not used to it being that spacious with no noise..haha..your house has full of my memories with you..so is the whole compound of parc oasis..wont you miss it baby?i tink i will..day out with my section mates and our old friends..i can tell how much you enjoy their company..but of course..im there too.HAHA
missed your smile missed your presence missed your hugs missed all of your you. n of course..there is no need for explanation..im clearly the luckiest person in the world..because of you.

sorry i woke late today baby.hehe. MUACKS

I knew this night would come. and it came too soon too fast.

So OCS it would be. did we see this coming? i dunno..of course..it would be a once in a lifetime experience..but im not sure i would be enjoying it much..9 months..i know it would be very hard for you..waiting for me every minute without seeing me..and it goes without saying..this coming 4weeks will be almost unbearable..i know how much you love me..i know how much u cherish this relationship..and i give you the commitment too..i wont let go..i wont give up on you..

take care yourself when you are off to hongkong k?im really quite worried baby..dun wan you to go partly cus i wanna see you the 3rd weekend..but also the possibility of the H1N1..there is really alot cases..tell me if you do get any vaccination shots..you should baby..of course the trip would be good for your studies..and thats a good thing i wan for you too..but..take care of yourself..tell me you are all healthy whenever i call you from camp..

not gonna see your house anymore!so many memories there..almost every corner of the house..why do i sound more attach and unwilling bout the move than you?haha..like you say baby..mayb you have moved house too much..but we really been through alot there ya?even the first few years of didi's life we have witnessed it there..and from you wearing uniform to everyday dresses..hahaha..i miss you wearing uniform..LOL

ill tell you all the things that will happen in camp..i always do..dont i?hahaha..hope my buddy is a nice guy..now dear..i feel the same as you..i dun wan us to hide our relationship forever..or any longer..i told my parents..and we shall see how things go..i dun wan you to feel down..remember i wont give up on you..i love you jus as endlessly as you love me..you should know and can feel..i prefer seeing you smile baby..hmm?muacks..i dun mind shouldering the pain if i can take it all away from you..i do wad i can to make our future a reality..i love you dear..ill miss you like mad..ill probably go insane without you, my personal brand of heroine..

PS:TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF PLEASE BABY.you know im always lo so

BACK FROM HEAVEN.

once in awhile, dear makes plans with the angels above to allow us to go up and take a walk around and enjoy a few days. of course, i know how lucky i am to have ya as my girlfriend..well..we all hate to come to the last day and hate to get back home..that feeling on the last day is always dreadful..either at bintan, redang or batam..why mus it end..hahaha

such an enjoyment hmm dear?this time we brought along so many friends..and it got even better..though not say everyone mixes around..at least my section mates are outgoing enough to make everyone join in..
-go cart
-swimming
-seafood dinner
-night late playing card games
-breakfast
-shopping
-massage (not me)
-dinner
-night late playing games and ghost stories
-breakfast
-bowling and pool
-swim
-off back home..

out of all trips..this should be the one that is most fun..though the place is nothing much amazing or wad..its jus good place to enjoy company..i dunno how to post pics..so we jus see from facebook k dear?haha..quite memorable ba..finally..some friends of mine you can enjoy company of..how can you mistake me with sidne..haiyo dear..haha..
look at you. i cant forget that look. every morning when im bout to wake up..you jus wrap yourself tight around me..and when i turn..i see your angelic face smiling at me..and i know that the day will be great..cus i have you right from the start beside me..
lets plan our next trip k?it should be one where we fly ba.hahaha..muacks..thank you so much baby..I LOVE YOU TILL BITS AND PIECES.